Females. how would you feel ?

I were with a guy for nearly 2 years.I fell madly in love with him.In beginning he told me he loved me but as he washurt from his divorce he was off marriage.Then i were estatic when he told me he liked coming home to someone.I cooked all his favourite meals nearly every night and he told me life doesnt get better than this.He proposed in july,we were both looking foward to spending our lives together.He even called the church (yes i checked) to make inquiries of a weedding date available.My 6year old daughter called him dad,his 6 year old son cried whenever we went back to our own homes.I called him one day in october after i had gone away for weekend with my daughter and he said he was busy at moment with his son misbehaving and couldnt talk there and then as he was driving and stressed out, so an hour later i called him and his phone rang out.So i kept on calling,he picked up phone and yelled at me for being a phone harrer and he was at his mums place.She never likes daughter in laws,past,future or present (he rents out one of her properties with his sister) and he says next day that his mum heard his phone constantly calling?he said yes.He said his mum said end the relationship and he said ok i will.just like that .over the PHONE.end of engagement,then his birthday was at end of week so i called him,said he wanted to spend rest of life with me.Then i didnt call him for 3dayys agai,he didnt call me either.And i got the sorry, i can"t talk to you right now and that was the end.I have been suffering,the physical pain wakes me up in the middle of the night,i wake up in the quiteness of the night it feels like a bad dream,we had the best ,pion ever.Now it is over, not even face to face.He is 37